Hello friend.

Welcome to another good conversation…

A good conversation about self mastery, and, you know, becoming the best version of ourself from the inside out.

You might notice there’s some background noise, and the background noise, it’s very annoying,

But on the flip side, there’s actually something really peaceful about it.

It’s so strange.

It’s so strange.

So I wasn’t going to make this video part of the series.

This was gonna be private, just between me and myself, because I wanted to talk to myself, about a major transformation, that we’re going through…

All because of this noise.

Well, not all because of the noise.

But the noise.

The situation over there in front of me that…

You can’t see.

But I can see it.

This situation is so stupid.

It’s so stupid.

It’s so personal.

And so annoying.

And so small.

But so ginormous.

It’s one of these things that don’t just happen to anyone.

It happens to me though.

It happens to me.

Why?

Why do these kinds of things happen to me?

So many of these kinds of things.

These stories.

A story about inconvenience, and just like, bullshit.

Bullshit stories.

And you know, they say we create own reality.

They say we create own reality, based on how we feel, and what we think.

And thus all my work.

The work that I’ve been doing to become Artist Sarah Long.

It’s all based on me calibrating to wellbeing.

Me doing the work to learn about myself.

My selves…

In hopes that the more I get to know myself, the more I will understand myself.

And it is through understanding that we find innerstanding.

And it is through innerstanding, that we learn to really love ourself, because we bridge the gap.

We’ve removed the uncertainty around who we are.

Which is really what causes the separation.

And it is that separation that creates the monster.

And it’s the monster that governs our ship.

It’s the monster that tells us how to respond to life’s events.

And it is our reaction…

Our response to our events.

Our stories, how we respond, is really what is always carving our path.

And for me, I just knew from an early age that I was carving a path that I didn’t really want to go down. but I didn’t know how to stop it.

And so I used… you know personal development tools, to try to help myself survive or persevere, while I take the path of most resistance.

And that’s why I became like an exercise addict.

And I used fitness as a tool, to feel good.

I used running as a tool, to get the runners high, because it made me feel good inside for a short period of time.

My biggest weapon for managing my pain, and my resistance, and creating a life that I didn’t love, was fitness.

But fitness on its own isn’t enough.

And too much of a good thing can cause you to self destruct.

And when exercise becomes a tool.

The only tool.

And if you’re someone like me

Who is all or nothing…

Well, let’s just say that

I didn’t go for a run around the block.

Every time I went for a workout, I was going into competition.

I was going in to compete against myself.

How hard can you bring it today, Sarah?

How much can you lift today?

How far can you run today?

How fast can you go today?

Today, Sarah is an opportunity to invest in your physical body, and prove to us that you are good enough.

Prove to us that you are capable of doing something that means something, and eventually that way of thinking, and that way of being…

Constantly competing with myself in the gym.

Constantly taking from my body, because there’s no balance.

See, an effective training program, should really be based around, rest and recovery, because without rest and recovery.

Without the downtime, you’re not making time to repair the damage.

And if you don’t repair the damage, then you’re always taking from something that’s damaged.

And so the more damaged you are, and the more you take from yourself, the more you end up into a deficit, and you eventually have nothing left to give.

And I knew for a very long time, that I was in a very bad place with my health.

But like I said in the past there’s nowhere to go for this.

There’s nowhere to go for what it really takes to get yourself out of that way of being.

Out of that health crisis.

Just because someone’s fit, doesn’t mean they’re healthy.

Just because you exercise and eat well, doesn’t mean you are healthy mentally.

Emotionally.

Spiritually.

So where do you go for that?

Gyms are very busy.

Gyms are in high demand.

But where’s the mental gym?

Where’s the emotional gym?

Where’s the spiritual gym?

Oh, do that for yourself.

Do that on your own time

you don’t need a place to go for that.

Yes, you fucking do.

Absolutely, you do more than anything.

If you had a mental gym, and a spiritual gym.

And an emotional gym.

You wouldn’t need a physical gym.

Because in fact…

In actuality, everything you do at a gym is probably pointless.

You can get a better workout…

You can build more strength with just your body.

Minimal equipment.

Minimal equipment is what it takes to really build a strong, and fit body.

And a less is more approach, is really more effective.

Than these very intense training programs.

And using these weird machines, like ellipticals.

And whatever…

Like a gym is part of the prison system that we’re all in, because we think that’s the holy grail to what it takes to get well, and become the best version of ourself.

At least that’s what I thought.

But really, it’s such a small piece of the puzzle.

And so many people base their daily practice, their daily routines, around their gym workouts.

And there’s no time for meditation.

There’s no time for journaling.

There’s no time for documenting, and reflecting.

There’s no time for yoga.

There’s no time for foam rolling, and mobility work.

There’s no time for movement.

There’s no time for nutrition.

There’s no time for romance.

There’s no time for slow dance.

There’s no time for hot tubs

and low light and candles.

There’s no time, because I mean…

You work eight hours a day.

And, you have to sleep.

And eat.

Luckily there’s fast food.

So you can always go and grab that.

Most people are living in a very small world, and everything they think matters, doesn’t matter at all.

And the hardest part of the process of raising our frequency, and letting go of what we think we know…

Lifting the veil.

The hardest part is changing our behaviors.

Letting go of our beliefs about things, and being willing to sit in the heart space, and listen.

Listen to the noise in the background.

Observe the sound your breath makes.

Observe the rhythm of your heart.

How does your heart beat?

How does your heart beat?

When we take the time to go within, we cultivate a whole new level of self-awareness.

If I could go back in time, and do things differently, I would do things so differently.

And my daily practice, would be so different.

One of the biggest lessons I realized during my cancer experience, and situation, was realizing how much I didn’t love myself, and I didn’t even know it.

Because I thought that the fitness, and the nutrition, and being health conscious, physically…

I thought that was self love.

But when I wasn’t able to exercise, like I used to.

And when I lost my physical health, I had nothing.

I didn’t have my heart.

I didn’t have my mind.

I didn’t know I had a soul.

I didn’t know anything.

Like, I didn’t know myself in these ways.

And, without my physical health I didn’t have that to lean on anymore.

So it was like I was falling in thin air, and that’s what really kind of forced me to you know….

Do this life plan.

And pursue this quest.

The quest for self-awareness.

For self acceptance.

Self love.

And self mastery.

And I just knew that if I didn’t…

You know, do the work to really build myself up mentally.

Emotionally.

Physically.

Spiritually.

That I was always at risk…

Of losing everything.

But when you have done the work, to build up, those four pillars.

When you have cultivated self mastery.

It doesn’t matter what happens, you’re always supported.

And death isn’t the end.

So death isn’t the worst that it gets.

If you do it right.

The better it gets.

The better it gets.

And at least that’s what, I’m trying to tell myself, and convince myself of.

The truth is, sometimes it doesn’t always feel like the work is working.

But that’s what makes having a daily practice so important because, you know you have the death plan.

You have your Phoenix rising.

And you have your frequency activators.

But it’s when we integrate, all of these things into a daily practice that helps us do the work.

The behaviors.

The decisions.

The actions.

It’s when we be the person we need to be, in order for our goals to work.

In order for our plans to manifest, we have to put into practice the personality…

The way of being. in order for it to work.

And so what you do from the moment you wake up, to the time that you go to bed, to what you do, in your sleep.

It’s all causing an effect.

It’s all causing an effect on your reality.

And so what are you doing every second of the day to calibrate to wellbeing?

What are you doing every second of the day to keep yourself on the high flying disc?

To honor your emotions.

To investigate.

To research.

To learn about love.

About yourself.

It’s every day.

But it’s more than that.

It’s every second of every day that matters.

And it’s the days that pile up that cause the weeks and it’s the weeks that cause the months.

And it’s the months that cause the years.

It’s not the time we spend here that counts.

What counts is what we do with the time we’re here.

Our stories, and our events, and our experiences don’t happen in these one offs, like we think.

The seconds that are constantly adding up, leading you down a path to experience a certain experience.

If we want to try to have more control over our experiences, and facilitate these rich and glorious life experiences.

Then we really need to be more mindful of our daily practice.

Be more mindful of our routines.

Our thoughts.

And our feelings.

So once upon a time my daily practice included a lot of time at a gym, and a lot of time you know, meal prepping, and a lot of time on television shows, and you know social media stuff.

A lot of time out socializing with friends at a bar or something like that.

But now…

My daily practice.

My life…

Is the exact opposite.

The exact opposite.

It’s hard to believe that I used to be the way I used to be.

It’s hard to believe I was the way I was.

And sometimes I miss that version of myself to be honest, because I knew how to be her.

And it’s nice to know how to be someone.

But that wasn’t who I was.

And as I’ve done this work to break the habit of being myself, by doing what I’ve done I’ve come to realize that who I was, really helped me survive some very hard times.

And it’s not that I don’t love that version of myself, and it’s not that she was a bad person or anything.

It’s just that I don’t need her to keep me safe anymore.

And this new version of myself….

We spend a lot of time alone doing the work.

Being in love.

Learning about love.

And I’m coming to a place where I feel like I’m ready to integrate the two.

The version I used to be with the version I’ve become.

And I’m really curious to see how the two get along.

Because when I look at them both on their own.

They’re pretty magnificent, you know?

I know I like to criticize and, there’s a part of me that is very judgemental.

But I also know that part of me sees things in a very flawed point of view, and I don’t take their point of view seriously.

So yeah.

I just think that if I could integrate the best versions of myself, and really come together, in a way that feels very balanced.

Maybe then I will advance to the next level.

The next level of turning pro.

The next level of home.

The next level of creativity.

The next level of spirituality.

I want more.

Because if you don’t keep going, and asking for more.

If we don’t keep doing the work to expand…

(Is my hair look green?

My hair is green.)

If we don’t do the work

to expand our gifts.

To keep opening the door.

To keep pursuing the quest.

If we don’t we don’t, things will get worse.

And this situation with the noise…

And the story it contributes to.

Part of me wanted to be very angry about it.

I wanted to cry like a little baby, cuz sometimes I like to do that.

Feeling is healing.

You know?

If you don’t cry, you don’t let the emotions out.

But I didn’t cry.

This time I decided to look at this situation from a different point of view, and I asked why?

What are you trying to tell me?

What are you trying to teach me?

What are you trying to activate in me?

Patience.

Acceptance.

Sometimes things happen to set us back.

To give us the opportunity to take a step back.

When we take a step back, even though sometimes it can feel like a hindrance.

Like an inconvenience.

Can feel like we’re losing time or money.

But you can also see it as an opportunity to gain, time and money.

To gain new perspective.

To gain new insight.

So I would say the hardest part with doing the work is to be able to keep seeing everything from a place of love.

Even when you don’t want to.

Even when you don’t want to.

Because trust me, there’s always the other side of the stick.

I always have the ability to see the worst.

To see the darkness.

To see the see from a place of fear.

I can always go there because it’s what I know.

It’s what I know.

But I don’t want to be there anymore.

That’s what drives me more than anything.

Because like, you know if we are eternal.

If we do come back, and if karma is always causing an effect…

I mean some people say that we’re ending karma…

But I don’t know who to believe, or what to believe anymore.

All I can do is my best, to take the information I’ve collected, and try to integrate it into my life as a daily practice with hopes that I am on a path that is leading me to my highest and best in this life.

And in the next.

Because I just don’t wanna die with regret.

I don’t wanna die with unfinished business.

And I don’t wanna die never knowing my gifts.

Because I don’t want come back in the next life not knowing again.

Now you might think I’m crazy for being this obsessed with…myself.

This work…

But I have nothing else…

I have nothing else.

So this is everything to me.

This is everything.

All I have is myself.

And so my daily practice helps me stay accountable to the process.

To the work.

Even when I don’t want to.

Even when my dark side gets the best of me.

The daily practice reminds me of what really matters most.

Today is evidence that I’ve come a long way because, like I said this situation over there with radiator.

The radiator has become a monster.

This situation has really forced me to be the version of myself

I wanna be.

The version of myself that loves unconditionally, no matter what.

Like there’s a huge part of me that was very angry, and frustrated with this situation, because it’s very loud, and it’s very disruptive, and very, very, very annoying.

I can feel it.

I feel the energy.

I hear the energy.

But I don’t want it to stop me from doing the work.

And I had to do this video today because it’s part of my plan.

It’s part of my daily practice.

So I could have let this stop me, but I’ve come to a place where I don’t wanna be stopped anymore.

And I come to a place where I believe in myself more than ever before.

I just want to be in love more often than not.

As often as possible.

And that way of being is based on our thoughts.

Thoughts affect our hearts, and how we feel affects our thoughts.

So in moments where the situation. doesn’t feel fair, or feels like a personal attack.

Or feels like a very frustrating place to be we always have a choice.

How are we going to respond?

Are we going to respond from a place of fear, and frustration?

Or can we respond from a place of grace and patience?

And I know that responding from that point of view, with patience and grace doesn’t always feel like, the right thing to do.

It doesn’t feel easy, or just, right?

Sometimes when things feel unjust to us, we want to respond.

From a place of anger, and retaliation.

But I guess my point is, is that we can do that but from a higher vibration.

We can respond, and express our frustration from a place of love.

From a place of grace and patience.

And when we can do that, that’s how we really keep ourselves on the high flying disc, and maintain our momentum in the direction that we really want to go.

And if we don’t do that.

If we do deviate from the course…we basically just slow ourselves down, because you’ve gotten off path.

Now, you’re angry.

You’re upset.

You’re going down there…you’re doing this.

And you’re going to react from that point of view.

Thus, you’re going to experience stories and situations, from that point of view.

So while it’s easy to default to how you’ve always been.

It takes a lot of courage, and discipline to change your programming.

To change your behaviors, and your preferred emotions.

Unfortunately, for many of us in order for us to really do the work to change.

The pain of staying the same has to become greater than the pain of change.

Most people don’t wanna do the work.

They don’t wanna do whatever it takes to break the cycles.

To give up the addictions.

To stop seeing certain people.

They just don’t wanna do what it takes.

I don’t have a choice.

This is everything.

So I continue to persevere, and I’m proud of myself for dealing with this radiator issue because my reaction says a lot about where I am vibrationally.

And that makes me very happy.

So with that being said, I hope you feel inspired to create a daily practice that helps you facilitate your own process for raising the frequency, and calibrating to wellbeing.

I will be talking more about this stuff…

Consider these good conversations like sugar cubes.

But better than sugar cubes.

Like…

Sugar cubes are not very good, but sugar cubes are good in cup of tea, or a cup of coffee.

Or you put a couple sugar cubes, in a in some cookies you might have some good cookies.

So it’s not the sugar cubes so much that we love but it’s what the sugar cubes can do for stuff…

Sweeten things up.

So I guess what I’m really trying to say.

These good conversations they’re like the sugar cubes to your life.

That’s right.

And life is better at the beach.

You dig?

So that’s all I’m gonna say about this conversation.

I hope you didn’t mind the sound in the background.

But if you did, well, that’s too bad.

This is real life.

This is real life, my friend, and I’m not gonna sugar coat anything.

I’m not sugarcoating anything anymore.

I’m real raw, and honest, and I’m gonna bring it to you that way always.

And today was the day to talk about the daily practice.

If I don’t talk about things when I get the download, then I don’t get the conversation.

So we have to honor the flow.

We have to respect when the conversation wants to come out.

So it came out during a time of chaos, and I think that’s really beautiful.

We did it when the timing didn’t feel right.

When the circumstances didn’t feel perfect.

But it was in that imperfection, and chaos that I was really able to feel a new version of myself.

Patience is only a virtue if you don’t do the work to cultivate it.

But if you do, it can be your saving grace to winning this war.

The War on Inner Peace.

Be sure to check out the next good conversation.

We’re gonna have another good conversation on topics related to self mastery.

That topic will be accountability.

Thank you for listening.

Peace.