This girl just walked by me…
Blonde hair, nice eyes and I liked her shoes and I liked her style.
And even though I don’t usually go for blondes, I think I love her.
She just did something to my insides that makes me wonder, who will be my next lover?
It also makes me think that maybe the one that got away at the Gateway, never really was the one like I thought she was
So maybe I made her up, just to get me through my storm?
Maybe she was there just to give me hope that real love is still possible, even though I lost my heart a long time ago?
And maybe that hope was supposed to get me closer to mySelf?
And maybe now that I am mySelf, I’m ready for the kind of love I’ve been dreaming of, and I feel like that girl that I just walked by, could be the one I’ve dreamin’ of…
But I’m not gonna beg her to love me back cuz that’s not attractive.
And I’m not that desperate.
Now I’ve accepted that, just because I think I love someone at first sight, doesn’t mean I need to act on it.
Now I know, Love is fluid.
It’s like water, and it comes and goes….
It’s formless.
It’s shapeless.
It just IS.
And it’s always looking for me, it just waits for me to be open to receive.
So, I’m gonna let that girl go.
I won’t chase her down like I did before…
Like I’ve done in the past…
Because now I know that forced love doesn’t last.
