She’s not who she use to be.

She’s not even me…

It’s like She’s being this being that I don’t even realize is me, but at the same time, I see that She’s all me.

She’s the Self that I’ve been afraid to be for reasons that my Monster makes me think are true, and then I stop myself from doing the work to become more like Her.

But now I feel like I’ve come to this place that I can’t stop myself like I did before.

Now I realize what I was afraid of the most…

And once you know, you can’t ignore it anymore.

My fear was that one day if I really wanted a way out of the pain…

The struggle.

Then I was gonna have to be…

MySelf.

Her.

The one I’ve been dreaming about.